2010 Oscar Nominee

A few weeks ago I was puttering in the kitchen while the kids played in the dining/living room area.  I wasn’t really listening. They were playing one of their many imaginary games but I don’t know what the characters were.  Eventually I tuned back in see if there was play arguing or real arguing going on.  I looked over and Asher looked a little bewildered while grace was sitting on her knees, head in hands weeping.  It sounded like a fake cry, a very very sad fake cry, and I couldn’t really tell if it was fake or not.  I walked over and asked Asher what he did to his sister what was going on, but he didn’t seem to know.  They were “just playing and then she started crying”.   I knelt down and asked Grace if she was ok and head still in hands she sobbed, “I’m just sooo sad…”  Giving Asher the “you better not have lied about not doing anything to her eye” I asked why she was sad.  Looking up at me wide-eyed, tears streaming down face, “Because I am just a poor kid and don’t have any parents.  They died and no one has adopted me.” (or something along those lines.  It’s been a common play scenario for the past 6 months).

“Grace, are you really sad and crying or are you just pretending?”

Complete composure, wiping tears from face, “Just playing with Asher.”

Following that was the oh so common, “please do not REALLY cry when you are just pretending” speech (it sounds very similar to the “you may only scream if you are seriously injured or about to die” speech), and sheepish apology to my son.

Is this a common 3 year old skill or should I get the girl an agent?

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The Short Version

On Thursday two of my websites were compromised and my hosting company shut down all my websites. Having encountered multiple hacks over the last several months, I decided a clean slate was needed. I thus got a new hosting company and started 4  of my websites from scratch. The other 16 +/- sites… well, I decided to just shut them down. It was a hard decision, but one I’ve been thinking about for some time. This weekend put the nail in the coffin for them.

While I was at it, and due to necessity, I gave The Daily Burns a face-lift.

That’s the short version.

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So I Went for a Jog

I sit on my butt almost all day, every day.

Yesterday I decided to go for a jog. Oddly enough, I really enjoyed it. In fact, I enjoyed it so much that I went for another jog this morning. This time I took along my iPhone and used the free RunKeeper app. The jog was wonderful as the sun was… well, sort-of out and I got to see Mt. Baker and the Canadian Rockies. The air was fresh and crisp.

While I enjoyed the jog, I couldn’t help but ponder as I plodded, how in the world am I going to fit this into my schedule. Yesterday I was able to grab my jog at 4:00 in the afternoon and today’s was at 8:00 this morning. Neither of those times will work with work. So, I could get up early and go for a run… but knowing my deep love of sleep, I don’t foresee me getting up at 6:00 so I can get a run in. The other option might be in the evening, but it is pretty much dinner and family time when I get home from work and I don’t foresee going for a jog at 8:00 p.m. That leaves lunch time jog, which I guess could work. But, it just seems odd to go for a run in the middle of the work day.

What is the solution? I don’t know, but I’m open to suggestions.

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Asher's First Basketball Game

Here is some footage from Asher’s first basketball game. The quality isn’t great because I shot it all on my iPhone. Asher helped me with the play-by-play during post-production.

Enjoy:

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Fighting stink on the cheap

Almost 5 years ago, while delving into issues of natural foods, I also dipped a bit into natural body care. …Maybe just a pinky. It’s been a much longer process for me to become as crazy about (truly) natural skin care as I am about food. Don’t ask about house cleaning products either….I go back & forth on the follow-through.

However, ‘natural’ deodorant, or at the very least, non-anti-persperant, non-aluminum was a switch I made early on & stuck with. It took some time…very few options on the market seemed to help me at all (though for the record Ryan has been using Tom’s of Maine for years very happily…guess I’m stinkier than him). One big thing I discovered is that when I’m eating well & not consuming much if any sugar, natural options work well for me. When I’m traveling (which is synonymous for “eating junk & lots of it” for me…), darn near nothing works. AND i have to shower everyday. Sheesh….crazy, right? (again, for the record, Ryan is a ‘daily shower’ fan. I aim for every other day. Doesn’t always work out) I care for mixed reasons, partially because I follow the train of thought that what goes on your skin goes into your bloodstream (good example: birth control patch?), to varying degrees, im sure. I also figure my body is probably supposed to sweat… I know there’s conflicting arguments about whether or not toxins are released through sweat, but considering there are lymph nodes in close proximity to the area…I should probably be interested in what’s being applied to the area every single day of my life….not to mention…I’ve just become ok w/wet underarms. not a FAN of flaunting sweat marks on a hot day, but not mortified by it anymore. …and I do not glisten, I sweat. Ask my husband. My mom? SHE glistens. The woman seems almost incapable of sweat…however I appear to take after my father who can work up sweat thinking hard. The other thought being environmental issues. While I certainly tend toward ‘tree hugger’, it’s very rare that environmental ‘friendliness’ would be a bottom line deciding factor for me on anything. For good or ill, it’s simply a preferred option when it’s not too cumbersome to do so. It is something that factors into my decisions, however mildly.

All that said: I do still hold firmly to some deep held american beliefs (for good or ill)…like: women shouldn’t be hairy and more importantly: no one should stink. I don’t particularly care if i stink at the gym (should I ever go to one), but out & about in general, no stinking please. …I know, i don’t want to shower AND I don’t want to stink? sheesh.

After much trial & error, I finally settled on the deodorant crystal (w/baking soda sprinkles in between shower days) & have stayed there happily for 4 years. Until last week. Stupid internet. I ran across a post by Stephanie from bubble & bee that might have ruined me. After reading that, I did a little googling (yes, I read ‘the beauty brains‘ take on it too) & it would seem that although it’s a ‘different’ type of aluminum used in the crystals than in antiperspirant (that kind plugs up the pores to prevent sweat from even coming out. Sounds kinda creepy to me…), it is still aluminum which is (loosely/possible/maybe) connected to Alzheimer’s. Much like many people see vaccinations as being one of many triggers (or a ‘last straw’ on someone susceptible to complications) tied to Autism, it seems the same for aluminum being connected to Alzheimer’s. Either way….let’s remember I’m using this daily for years & years. I found that supposedly “potassium alum” would be more ideal/natural than “ammonium alum”. Off to read my label….yeah, ammonium. Of course. Compounded on this are the environmental aspects, it’s made w/bauxite ore which is an imported non-renewable resource (in abundance, but still…) blah blah blah…

The idea of trying homemade products from things in my KITCHEN & primarily FOOD was becoming more & more appealing as the week wore on. I’m still not necessarily 100% convinced it’s a NECESSARY step, but since I recently discovered it’s super easy to make lip balm, I decided deodorant couldn’t be much different. If nothing else, it would save a ton of money on Ryan’s deodorant (& get him off chemicals in his deodorant that I don’t recognize the name of). I googled some recipes and found most if not all were basically for a putty type…thing. I figured Ryan wouldn’t go for applying deodorant with his fingertips, so I decided to mix a lip balm & deodorant putty into one. A few days ago I mixed up a very small batch (& poured it into an old Tom’s deodorant container). This did work, but much like my first attempt at lip balm, a little too melty, so I will continue working on ratios & update when I find the right mix. As for it’s ’stink fighting power’: I’m sold. Ryan & I both used it yesterday (i did today but not sure if Ryan did), w/much success.

The recipe I used:

2T Baking soda
2T arrowroot powder (ok, i didn’t have any, so I used potato starch. ha! It worked fine, but I did buy some arrowroot yesterday just to be more mainstream :) )
2tsp Witch Hazel
2T coconut oil (virgin would be preferred as it’s supposed to have stink fighting properties of it’s own..though not strong enough for me by itself!)
2T cocobutter
few drops of essential oil of choice (I used theives oil, b/c it’s also known for killing germs, which i assume would boost stink fighting power)

melt fats in double boiler, remove from heat, mix in remaining ingredients, then pour into molds. I’m impatient so I stuck it in the fridge for an hour to help it solidify faster.

Next time I will try 1T coconut oil 2T cocobutter 1T beeswax to see if that helps with the melt factor as it’s being rubbed on.

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To Rally

I am so amazed though not surprised and incredibly humbled and grateful right now. We have been blessed with such a great circle of friends here. I sent out an email a few days ago explaining that Ryan and I are going to be starting classes next month to obtain our Foster Parent license so as to begin the Foster-to-adopt journey. It is 30hrs of classes, spread over 3 nights & 2 full saturdays. Since we don’t have any family in town to pawn the kids off on, the idea of arranging childcare was more than a little daunting. However, within 1 day all 5 ‘opportunities’ to babysit were filled by amazing friends! We still have to figure out when & where we’ll do the First Aid/CPR/blood borne pathogen training class, so the 2 folks who have expressed interest in helping out that haven’t been assigned a day to cover for us, might still have an opportunity. :) So thanks all of you who have so quickly and eagerly rallied. We are extremely grateful. …& I’m sure we’ll need you around for a lot more than just babysitting!

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Disciple's Renewal

I was struck by a pray read in the church service this morning. By struck, I mean that it rang true with my heart and soul. I thought I’d share it with you.

It is taken from Valley of Vision, A Collection of Puritan Prayers and Devotions:

O My Saviour, help me.
I am so slow to learn, so prone to forget, so weak to climb;

I am in the foothills when I should be in the heights;
I am pained by my graceless heart,
my prayerless days,
my poverty of love,
my sloth in the heavenly race,
my sullied conscience,
my wasted hours,
my unspent opportunities.

I am blind while light shines around me:
take the scales from my eyes,
grind to dust the evil heart of unbelief.

Make it my cheifest joy to study thee,
meditate on thee,
gaze on thee,
sit like Mary at thy feet,
lean like John on thy breast,
appeal like Peter to thy love,
count like Paul all things dung.

Give me increase and progress in grace so that there may be;
more decision in my character,
more vigor in my purposes,
more ELEVATION in my life,
more fervor in my devotion,
more constancy in my zeal.

As I have a position in the world,
keep me from making the world my position;

May I never seek in the creature what can be found only in the creator;

Let not faith cease from seeking thee until it vanishes into sight.

Ride forth in me, thou king of kings and lord of lords,
that I may live victoriously,and in victory attain my end.

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Bank of America Fail – A Vent

Just got off the phone with Bank of America and I need to vent…

A couple months ago I opened a business account. The rep told me that the account has an $11 a month service fee. However, if I had a Gold personal account, the fee would be waived. The problem with the Gold account is that it requires me to carry a 10K balance or else there is a $15 fee. So, obviously I wasn’t going to take that route. Until the representative told me that if I had two gold accounts then I wouldn’t have to maintain the minimum balance and I wouldn’t have the service fee. Along with that, I’d get my business account for free as well. So, despite the annoyance of having to open a second checking account AND changing my personal account to a Gold account, I went ahead and did it so I could save the $11 a month.

Enter in the November bank statement…

Of course, there is a $15 service fee on my personal account. I call BoA and ask them why it is there. The rep tells me that it is because I haven’t met the minimum balance. I go on to explain that I was told that having the two accounts, plus my business account meant that I didn’t have to keep the minimum balance and would have no service fees. The rep said that this was not the case and that there were no codes she could enter to make that happen. I asked her if I was misled or just stupid because, here’s my logic, I either:

  1. Was led by a BoA representative to believe that changing my account to Gold, opening a second Gold account, and opening a business account would remove all fees or
  2. I’m stupid because I randomly decided to take the time and energy to open a second account that I’m not going use, upgrade my current account, and open a business account all so that I can pay $15 a month instead of $11.

Now, I’m not trying to be pretentious, but I don’t think I’m that stupid. I went to great pains to make sure that the information I was given was true. I confirmed time and time again that I wouldn’t have to carry a $10K balance under this system. I know how my balance usually runs and, as much as I’d like a $10k a month balance, that just isn’t a reality. So, why would I open these accounts in order to pay more? I wouldn’t! That’s the point.

So, after a frustrating call to CS they have refunded my $15, closed my second account, and downgraded my personal checking to a normal account… and my business account now costs $11 a month.  So, Bank of America, thanks for being lame.  And while I’m venting… the fact that you don’t let me make a transfer from my business account to my personal account online is lame and your online billpay system is atrocious.

That’s all. Vent over.

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Calvin on the Bus

On the way into work this morning I was reading John Calvin’s Institutes of the Christian Religion on my iPhone (using the Logos iPhone Bible Software). Calvin being always quotable, I thought I’d share some with you:

For (such is our innate pride) we always seem to ourselves just, and upright, and wise, and holy, until we are convinced, by clear evidence, of our injustice, vileness, folly, and impurity. Convinced, however, we are not, if we look to ourselves only, and not to the Lord also—He being the only standard by the application of which this conviction can be produced.  (1, i, 2)

Some things never change, huh? When all we ever do is look at ourselves, we begin to think we’re ok. But what if there is something else we should be comparing ourselves to? Calvin helps clarify:

And since nothing appears within us or around us that is not tainted with very great impurity, so long as we keep our mind within the confines of human pollution, anything which is in some small degree less defiled delights us as if it were most pure just as an eye, to which nothing but black had been previously presented, deems an object of a whitish, or even of a brownish hue, to be perfectly white. (1, i, 2)

When we only seek to look around us for comparison, we can indeed think we are quite fine. Oh, look, I’m a better husband that that guy. I’m a better employee than that slacker. I’m nicer than that cashier. But these are nothing less than the “whitish” and “brownish” of which Calvin speaks. So, what are we to do?

So long as we do not look beyond the earth, we are quite pleased with our own righteousness, wisdom, and virtue; we address ourselves in the most flattering terms, and seem only less than demigods. But should we once begin to raise our thoughts to God, and reflect what kind of Being he is, and how absolute the perfection of that righteousness, and wisdom, and virtue, to which, as a standard, we are bound to be conformed, what formerly delighted us by its false show of righteousness will become polluted with the greatest iniquity; what strangely imposed upon us under the name of wisdom will disgust by its extreme folly; and what presented the appearance of virtuous energy will be condemned as the most miserable impotence. So far are those qualities in us, which seem most perfect, from corresponding to the divine purity. (1, i, 2)

We are to stop and turn our attention to our creator. The problem I find is that we are far to lazy in this effort. I speak primarily to myself here, though I’m sure it applies to you as well. We are far too comfortable looking around ourselves for the standards of good, righteous, holy, acceptable, right. However, we must stop and look to God and realize that “those qualities in us, which seem most perfect, (are so far) from corresponding to the divine purity.”

However, gazing upon the creator and divine purity, we see our great shortcomings. I am far from a good husband. I am far from a good employee. I am far from nice. But what is our hope? Are we left to dwell in misery after turning our eyes and attention unto God?

But now the righteousness of God has been manifested apart from the law, although the Law and the Prophets bear witness to it—the righteousness of God through faith in Jesus Christ for all who believe. For there is no distinction:  for fall have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,  and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus,  whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God’s righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins.  It was to show his righteousness at the present time, so that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus.  (Romans 3:21-26)

The God to who we turn our eyes and see our inadequacies has provided the answer. It is through faith in Jesus Christ. God has put forth Jesus and His perfection as the gracious gift to all who believe. As Pastor Pete read in the benediction on Sunday:

…though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red like crimson,
they shall become like wool.
(Isaiah 1:18)

May you and I, this Christmas season, turn our eyes to God and not only see our great need for a savior and redeemer but that Jesus is that savior and redeemer.

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B-ball camp

B-ball camp

The kids went to a 1 hour basketball camp at the Y today. More pictures will come once I have the time to process them. Till then, here is one:

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